Quoting Raphael Bob-Waksberg, I would try to tell her: Things will get better, but it came out as: Nothing didn’t get worse.
Some days ago, I was reading I Want to Go Home But I’m Already There by Róisín Lanigan at night. I started reading it because a) I love Irish authors and b) I read it was both funny and dark and… and an Irish author being funny? Color me interested! Around 9% of the book, there’s an incident that made me think, ok, maybe at night is not the right time to read this book because this is making me feel a bit scared, especially because the scene involved a character dozing off in front of the TV, which I was half doing in front of a book. This isn’t a spoiler, I guess, because it happens right at the beginning, but the character is taken to bed while she’s half asleep by her boyfriend. Then, the next day, she says thanks but he is like, I didn’t do anything. So then, who did it?
I stopped reading because I’m an adult and I can make my own choices and to kind of let go of that image, I went to the bathroom. But first, I took a peak through the window. This was eleven or close to midnight. And there, outside, in the middle of the night, there was a person walking their dog. A huge dog, by the way. I found it so strange at that moment. Why is a person walking their dog in the middle of the night? Why is the dog so big? Is it even a dog? Do ghosts have to walk their dogs?
As I came back from the bathroom, I decided to just sleep because this had already been too weird.
The next day, I was still thinking about it. Then I remembered I actually know the dog I saw and that I see it every other day on my way to work because apparently our routines are connected in a cosmic way. But my brain was too sleepy and confused in the night, WHICH IS THE SAME THING THAT HAPPENED TO THE CHARACTER. So, in theory, something like that could also happen to me.
As a result of this experience, I decided to not keep reading this book at night to avoid night terrors and confusions, and instead, read something light, which almost always means a romance novel. I went for The Irresistible Urge to Fall For Your Enemy by Brigitte Knightley because I had already read her fanfiction (best I’ve ever read) and what the heck, let’s try something new, I thought, because I’m normally not very attracted to Romantasy as a genre but anything would be better than having strange midnight feelings, and I was sure this book wouldn’t give me that.
Well.
The book starts with a GLOSSARY with definitions like “Platt’s Pox. Named after Epilotte Platt, a Haelan who first described the disease during an outbreak a century before this story begins” or “The Tiendoms, from OE tien, “ten” + dom, “jurisdiction.””
And I was like WHAT.
credit to Poorly Drawn Lines
And that’s how I went back to reading a book that will probably make me scared in the night because I prefer that a thousand times before feeling like an idiot before going to sleep.
¿qué es esta capacidad de asombro?
a veces leo cosas que escribí en el pasado y me asombro. esta vez releí un post que escribí justo sobre nuestra capacidad de asombro porque había nevado y yo me sentía como WOW. y déjenme decirles que pensé que esa sensación se iba a ir en algunos años y les tengo buenas noticias, ¡no se va! cada vez que nieva es increíble. el otro día que iba camino al trabajo en la mañana (aún pensando en el fantasma paseando un perro a media noche) y empezó a nevar poquito. la sensación de caminar mientras copos de nieve te caen en la cara no tiene comparación. ¡es muy lindo! en fin, esto es lo que escribí, que también es un poco como una cápsula de tiempo porque menciona la pandemia.
enjoyed and enjoying
✷ ¡empecé a tejer un suéter! por años no me había sentido preparada para tejer un suéter pero leí un thread de alguien diciendo que tiene más sentido tratar de hacer algo aunque sea difícil porque muy probablemente eso te hará aprender más, que tratar de aprender por años para hacerlo. así que... wish me luck. so far, so good.
✷ I learned that magic had very quotidian uses in ancient cultures, like surviving a lawsuit. I think this only makes me think on how much we've lost magic in our daily lives, wouldn't it be amazing to use some magic to survive a shitty week?
✷ fui a ver Hoppers con altas expectativas y totalmente las cumplió. la pueden culpar de centrista pero no pueden negar que los castores son la cosa más bella que Pixar ha hecho en AÑOS.
